There was a time when Valentine's Day was a very painful day for me. It's purpose seemed only to magnify the gaping void in my heart where love once resided. It was an empty, lonely, relentless feeling of depravity. If not for the love of my savior, I think I would have died from my broken heart. The stench of an ugly divorce now consumed my Valentine's Days and I hated every second of it. We never wanted a divorce... we just wanted the pain to stop. We had been through so much and we were tired... tired of fighting. We were mentally exhausted. Try as I may, I never could imagine my future without him.... I tried, and I tried, and I tried. When I would envision my future, he was there, and our family was whole. When I would envision my grandchildren, he was there. When I would envision myself growing old, he was there. The same was true for him. God just wouldn't let us move on because He had better plans for us. I'm so thankful He wasn't done with us. So thankful that by his grace, as my friend and colleague Melody Lovvorn so eloquently says of her own divorce, "our divorce just didn't work out." When you know what you have to lose, and the price you'll pay if you do, you will fight like hell to keep it.... and fight we have. It hasn't just been unicorns and rainbows. Its taken blood, sweat, and tears to reconcile our broken marriage and family... and the scars will always remain.
~Life is a journey~
Along the way we WILL encounter treacherous mountains and deep valleys, but we will journey them together –side by side, hand in hand.
Today, I am the happiest I have ever been in my entire life. I'm content. I know my husband loves me, because he loves me so well. He protects and nurtures my heart in a way he never has before. He honors me, he respects me, he encourages me, and he builds me up every single day. He is my partner, my lover, and my best friend. We laugh together, we cry together, we have fun together and we do nothing together. He is the love of my life and forever soul mate. I am so grateful we serve a God of second chances -grateful He has redeemed us and made all things new. I could not be more blessed. My sweet husband had to work on Valentine's Day this year. He hated it, but I honestly didn't mind at all. I smiled and told him, "everyday feels like Valentine's Day, because you make sure I feel special everyday."
To my man: Thank you for loving me, thank you for fighting for me, and thank you for never giving up.